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Name:Benjamin Tan Ming Xuan
Bdae:30/10/1993
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Skool:Woodgrove primary(2005), Sembawang Secondary(2009)
Msn:Alfha1_isha@hotmail.com
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Saturday, June 25, 2011, 6:24 AM;
Some How I just Hate the way things always happen around me.
I need To put this some where some how so i guess this is the best place to Say.Some How I just Hate the way things always happen around me.
The Feeling You're Giving me is that You just cant be bother any more and u just dun trust me even though u say u do. Maybe i need to trust u more =/ Yeah. Im really Sorry. From the bottom of my heart. I just hope things be back where they were before. =/ We just got close quite too fast....
Wednesday, January 27, 2010, 8:26 AM;
Right. I know quite a few people knows my feelings towards you. It aint gonna be long before you know. But I hope you wont freak out.Im really tired of hiding and tired of lying to you. I feel Guilty. When You feel sad so do I when you feel happy so do I. You know no matter what I will definitely support you. I'll catch You when you fall. That doesnt matter if u will reject me or what. Even if u reject me I hope we can still be friends. I cant control who i want to love who i dont. But i guess it chose you. Till that feeling fades i will continue loving u in silence or openly. My hand will be here, Grab it if u ever need help. I will definitely have the strength to pull u up.Wednesday, January 20, 2010, 8:34 AM;
Why am I feeling so alone? I really miss that person who was always there for me. I just wish she could be here now. Do stuffs like we did before. Have fun all 3 of us together. Going to the esplanade watch the Fireworks during national day. Getting me into trouble with the auntie for helping you hold the girls toilet door open. I really miss those times. I like you alot I really do, But its a totally different feeling from Love. I thought friendships were meant to last. Aint ours one? From the day you started to ignore me. Theres just one word to spell it all. Empty. Through this time I finally understood the True Value Of FRIENDSHIP. Do you know I blame myself for letting this all happen? When I think about then...... Tears just gathers. I miss everything about you and Eliz and..... just every thing. Im kinda worried that the next time I see you my tears would just fall. Im Really desperate to salvage whats left between all 3 of us. I dont mind if you changed. I know what i said last time. I didnt like what you've become. I later came to realize that changing is just part of our life. I changed too.... Im Sorry bout all of that okay? I'll wait till the day You finally read this. I hope You remember the questioned i ask you? I will wait for your ans. I hope You will get to see this.Monday, January 4, 2010, 7:01 AM;
Saturday, January 2, 2010, 7:57 AM;
Today is just like any other normal day at work. Just that he aint biting at me so much. Maybe cuz sales is good. Somehow there is a question in my head. I really wonder whats the answer. All my life all this while, it has been revolving around one word. Something i always wanted , But im afraid of the pain it would give. Somehow it's hard to differntiate the difference between LOVE and CRUSH. Cuz Both kinda hurt. Gee I dunno what more to say. Well thats that. Tuesday, December 29, 2009, 7:24 AM;
Haix I cant wait for chinese new year. Can some one fast forward time for me. I think I had enough of work. Sucks man.Sheesh and what an uncle I have. I feel like telling him:" Hey dude at least I finished my 4 years of express and took my o's, So quit looking down on me. I know I aint any good with sales so?? Just get off my back!" I would'nt have been around if not for the promise I made. Just dont push your luck too far. Every Patience has a limit.Me not saying a word doesnt mean I dont give a shit. Somehow I regret working. Well atleast after getting my pay I feel a little better to myself atleast it was'nt all in vain. (Remembering Sunday - All time low)I just got addicted to this song. Being different from other guys kinda makes me get into alot of misunderstandings. Haix, Is there someone out there, someone who really really know me?Saturday, December 26, 2009, 6:54 AM;
Tiring day man. Work work work.Well I dun care whatever he says and complains bout me not knowing how to push sales or whatever crap. Im not made for this job and i dun like it.Im just helping becuz of promising to work till feb. Dont worry im never coming back. Cuz being a sales man sucks. I dun like it. Im still really thinking where the heck to go on the day sheesh Maggie!!!! Well even so Im really looking forward to that day. Man sure feels like the holiday havent even started. Work like a dog like that. Well at least the money is "worth it"... I hate the enviorment there la sucks man. All the ah bengs and lians there sheesh all so stucked up. Sure as hell never gonna go back there to work after the end of my work. God I sure miss them... Hais.. Somehow in my lifetime i would like to live some place else instead of singapore. =) well its a good and its a bad thing. I understand it all Sara and i thought of it.=)