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Some How I just Hate the way things always happen around me.

2011-06-25T06:24:00.000-07:00

I need To put this some where some how so i guess this is the best place to Say.
The Feeling You're Giving me is that You just cant be bother any more and u just dun trust me even though u say u do. Maybe i need to trust u more =/ Yeah. Im really Sorry. From the bottom of my heart. I just hope things be back where they were before. =/ We just got close quite too fast....

2010-01-27T08:26:00.000-08:00

Right. I know quite a few people knows my feelings towards you. It aint gonna be long before you know. But I hope you wont freak out.Im really tired of hiding and tired of lying to you. I feel Guilty. When You feel sad so do I when you feel happy so do I. You know no matter what I will definitely support you. I'll catch You when you fall. That doesnt matter if u will reject me or what. Even if u reject me I hope we can still be friends. I cant control who i want to love who i dont. But i guess it chose you. Till that feeling fades i will continue loving u in silence or openly. My hand will be here, Grab it if u ever need help. I will definitely have the strength to pull u up.

2010-01-20T08:34:00.000-08:00

Why am I feeling so alone? I really miss that person who was always there for me. I just wish she could be here now. Do stuffs like we did before. Have fun all 3 of us together. Going to the esplanade watch the Fireworks during national day. Getting me into trouble with the auntie for helping you hold the girls toilet door open. I really miss those times. I like you alot I really do, But its a totally different feeling from Love. I thought friendships were meant to last. Aint ours one? From the day you started to ignore me. Theres just one word to spell it all. Empty. Through this time I finally understood the True Value Of FRIENDSHIP. Do you know I blame myself for letting this all happen? When I think about then...... Tears just gathers. I miss everything about you and Eliz and..... just every thing. Im kinda worried that the next time I see you my tears would just fall. Im Really desperate to salvage whats left between all 3 of us. I dont mind if you changed. I know what i said last time. I didnt like what you've become. I later came to realize that changing is just part of our life. I changed too.... Im Sorry bout all of that okay? I'll wait till the day You finally read this. I hope You remember the questioned i ask you? I will wait for your ans. I hope You will get to see this.

2010-01-04T07:01:00.000-08:00

Gee. I Want to live some where faraway. Where no one there knows me. A place where I can start anew. Sure there are some ppl who are making me hold myself back. I know I aint doing myself good feeling down bout all this and all. It just brings more of it to me huh. I guess. But well, I dream of living in a home, having a family. Living in a place , Nice quiet neighbourhood , a nice scenery from the backyard. It doesnt look like i can find this place in singapore. I dun feel Belonged here, But I do belong here. Every young bird would leave its nest and find its new home. I guess its the same for me. Some how after watching avatar, I wish i was born there. If there is such a place as Pandora. Hahas i guess thats about it till then.

2010-01-02T07:57:00.000-08:00

Today is just like any other normal day at work. Just that he aint biting at me so much. Maybe cuz sales is good. Somehow there is a question in my head. I really wonder whats the answer. All my life all this while, it has been revolving around one word. Something i always wanted , But im afraid of the pain it would give. Somehow it's hard to differntiate the difference between LOVE and CRUSH. Cuz Both kinda hurt. Gee I dunno what more to say. Well thats that.

2009-12-29T07:24:00.000-08:00

Haix I cant wait for chinese new year. Can some one fast forward time for me. I think I had enough of work. Sucks man.Sheesh and what an uncle I have. I feel like telling him:" Hey dude at least I finished my 4 years of express and took my o's, So quit looking down on me. I know I aint any good with sales so?? Just get off my back!" I would'nt have been around if not for the promise I made. Just dont push your luck too far. Every Patience has a limit.Me not saying a word doesnt mean I dont give a shit. Somehow I regret working. Well atleast after getting my pay I feel a little better to myself atleast it was'nt all in vain. (Remembering Sunday - All time low)I just got addicted to this song. Being different from other guys kinda makes me get into alot of misunderstandings. Haix, Is there someone out there, someone who really really know me?

2009-12-26T06:54:00.000-08:00

Tiring day man. Work work work.Well I dun care whatever he says and complains bout me not knowing how to push sales or whatever crap. Im not made for this job and i dun like it.Im just helping becuz of promising to work till feb. Dont worry im never coming back. Cuz being a sales man sucks. I dun like it. Im still really thinking where the heck to go on the day sheesh Maggie!!!! Well even so Im really looking forward to that day. Man sure feels like the holiday havent even started. Work like a dog like that. Well at least the money is "worth it"... I hate the enviorment there la sucks man. All the ah bengs and lians there sheesh all so stucked up. Sure as hell never gonna go back there to work after the end of my work. God I sure miss them... Hais.. Somehow in my lifetime i would like to live some place else instead of singapore. =) well its a good and its a bad thing. I understand it all Sara and i thought of it.=)

Chalet

2009-11-24T19:08:00.000-08:00

I just came back from chalet. Some I miss some people from my class, But definitely not all.=) Well, Chalet was a blast. Especially last nights dance. Rahman u rocked the floor man and dun u dare freaking doing that to me again. I Got all drenched after dancing. Oh yeah First night 7 people squeeze on two single size bed. Hell of a squeeze. Elena sleeping beside me said i tossed and turned like theres no tomorrow. Hahas. Even Though the squeeze and all I did have fun. Chatting bout life with Rebekah and Susan.You two, Gotta thank you guys. would'nt be fun without you two. Well Im Kinda tired I think maybe Im going to sleep.

Right i guess I willl start using my blog again hahas.

2009-11-20T07:05:00.000-08:00

I just cant believe my eyes today. Those kindergarden kids . Hell they speak better mandarin then me XD. I aint shy to admit but my mother tongue sucks. And it really sucks BIG time.My cousins one posed as a duck and the other a frog. They were part of a show. After seeing them present everything effortlessly. I kinda find that adults are pretty useless at times. hahas Just my interpretation. Those kids were really cute. Some of them even made the whole crowd laughed with their actions. Somehow I was wondering. You gotta be kidding me we were once like them?!?! hahas ugly truth but its the fact.Oh yea i read a book. The secret. I really have to thank Sara for introducing to me such a book. Lol the first book i ever was intersted in so u do the math. I really picked up some really good points from the book to take not.Its just points to use telling us to always look at the brighter side of things no matter what. The Law of Attraction. hahas well not gonna be a spoiler here. lols well, I guess its time to leave my emo self behind and embrace the brighter side of me =). This time Love aint gonna bring me Down.

2008-12-16T00:02:00.000-08:00

Back once again i think tis blog is officially closed cuz i aint want to blog any more its not my kind of life i guess hahas and well now really messed up thats what i can say.... what do u do with people just insults your family and you for you just giving a harmless suggestion??? not saying that that person have to change the plan for the whole thing ... i really think its crossing the line a little way too much .. well i guess this will be my last post hahas so .... Till the time i want to blog again see ya...;]

2008-12-04T19:53:00.000-08:00

i dun know what the hell has been going wrong what have i beeen doing..... All this Could it be becuz of ......FUCK ..... This is fucking messed up or i am messed up myself omg ......Fuck fuck fuck fuck....whats the problem damn... all this just dont add up ... Would some one in this damn world tell me whats wrong with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The way ive treated ppl...... argh all this running through my head time over time.........the problem.... How i wish there is someone i can really talk to i want a punching bag..... but if there really is a problem can a sorry cut it all this ..... Im so scared Im so scared.. all this argh damn ...GOD why cant i just be perfect or maybe normal... what is he trying to tell me.... all this days there gotta be something .... im not thinking normal.... HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bloggin for the sake of it

2008-11-04T00:11:00.000-08:00

Wow lol my blog seems deserted lol cuz i too lazy to blog this days my cuzzies birthday is comming up hmm guess happy advance birthday to you little joshua and thanks pam for wishing me happy birthday infact my whole class hahas thank you 3e1 lol... Happy and troubled is how ive been all these while kinda funny well guess i actually know how it feels to have mix feelings now aint pretty man ...oh yah that day went to eat dinner at some restaruant near beach road and took a picture of me wearing my sis specs the big nerdy one
hahas looks kinda cool though hahas big big one i intend on buying one maybe hahas ...oh yah then on my birthday went to watch high school musical 3 senior year ...gotta say its the best outta the 3 and the songs are nice... kinda cool day that was well wisaphoon seeem like a emotionless stone sitting in the theatre staring at the screen .. well atleast now i know why not to go to sun plaza to watch a movie ...the sound system is super bad la well not that bad la still can know what they are saying.... mum bought me a new jacket or is it my aunt ar nevermind.. well its a nice jacket i can say ...come to think about it i think this year is the year where i get the least presents for my birthday hahas who cares any way doesnt makes much of a diffrence any way lol i know i was super noisy on that day .... oh yah i came by a song
(CRUSH - DAVID ARCHULETA)
4 days ago trust me its a damn nice song la just got my new phone the day before yesterday .... not bad la that phone can say its quite a good phone better then the samsung one hahas ..today kinda crappy and cool at the same time ....stupid arse face threw a bao at me then i splash the maggie soup on his whole shirt ...hahas come to think of it .kinda stupid of me to retaliate but i guess whats done is done cant go back and undo but why do i get a sense of succesion when i splash that arse face with the maggie soup is it revenge well what eva it is i bet it aint good that whats i know ... chinese class kinda getting a little better after the exams .. maybe its becuz Mrs chew really means it when she say its time to have fun for this point of time and then go back to the intense revision right after the holidays .... oh yah not gonna miss out this .... to be honest i am kinda suprised that YOU talked to me. Well i must say to me its quite difficult with so many odds around im always doubting my next move hoping i wont stirr up some misunderstanding bring this friend ship down the drain ...i admit i was the one who started it but well all i can say now is Sorry ... and i really hope next time i will have the courage to talk to YOU... well guess im too good at spoiling a friendship hahas .... nvm bout that now im not intrestted in relationship now ... its gonna mess with my studies ... well kk hope YOU understand that i just want to be your friend only nothing more nothing less... gotta go already just finished all the crap i got in my head hahas

THE GREAT COUNTDOWN

2008-10-22T05:46:00.000-07:00

Man lemme see 9 more days till my birthday comes and 1 more year older hahas cool man great wonder what i will get this year hahas actually i dun expect much just happy my dads back from the hospital .... well atleast he is back and healthy... well i wish whoops!! cant say or else it wont come true hahas currently seeing some old show lols ... high school musical 2 hahas kinda sian to see this show over and over again kinda sian well i think that the camp rock show also not bad. kinda sick and tired of every thing that is going on around my head is really spinning round and round ... and im really sick and tired of all this ... nvm holidays coming camps coming i really wish i have a great time. Its seriously have been a super long time since i listen to chinese song lols got too hooked on english well glad ... Joel you and your ego please lah get a life man... actually people see you ok ok one lor you show that fucktarded face only hor really is making peoples fist itch..

Im scared

2008-10-11T07:54:00.000-07:00

Im so scared .....exams over but im so scared im afraid i would drop to normal academic next year but did i try my hardest??????? arrrrrrr now i regret not studying my hardest.......welll drop that ....tomorrow TAEKWONDO GRADING i must not fail this one or i will miss the chance of getting to black belt next year .....man im also kinda scared of going to black belt cuz ive gotta fight 1st dan black belt consequetively.....lols... Well A challenge is better then nothing ....... oh yah ive got to say THANKS TO FELICIA also hahas thanks for the help by teaching me some of the questions i dunno hahas thanks you..... well long time never blog bout daily events hahas i also got nothing to blog about cuz im like stuck at home for the whole holiday thingy argh when exams are here people plead for it to end when its over people want to have exam as they have nothing to do same situation as me ... although ive been alone in my house doing nothing for the pass 3 days .... i really have a good thinking back of all the things ive miss and all the things i took granted off .... people always say that no one is perfect but its just a reason for a person to not be the best of what they are.. well even though i can say this but the problem is i just cant change to what i know is best..... even now im regretting things that ive done............................................in the spare time i also have been thinking of something that i wanted to do but did not have the courage to do.....Well i know ive been a jerk before and maybe a jerk now too but now one thing is i just want to be a normal friend nothing more nothing less... i really hope i can get the courage i need to talk to you.....i hope you know who you are..

Well enough of that talk hahas GOT TO SCRAM BYES.......

WOW is the word to describe today

2008-09-01T07:00:00.000-07:00

the trio(so sad im the only guy lols well who cares)
and my bruised elbow lols oh dun forget the B

Well cant say today is a bad day and i also cant say today is a good day....at least it wasnt a day of total boredom.....Well one think i can conclude is Elizabeth is alittle off today .....well what to do....to be honest every one gets moody when they are sick ...lols well instead of getting angry gotta wish she get well soon hahas... when to the library again supposedly to meet wip eliz khati gab and beng yee ......but what did you know the plan all bust up..... elizabeth wasnt abit happy with the guys well when they ask us to join them she refuse what to do if i go she will be the only one there....and i have no reputation of leaving a friend alone so i stay lor hahas .... then wip came ... both of the girls hungry guess is outta my will to not follow them ... just had to sit ther with my psp and watch them eat ....dotz then after finishing the food that elizabeth still HUNGRY lols !!!! well gotta follow her to colds storage cannot reject that plan arh i think she really is super hungry la then in the lift well what a good place to get a cut ....dotz although you are the one who hit me with the file and caused the cut but dont feel bad ....cuz you aint in the right mood at that time and .... just forget bout it la just a small cut and you two make it like a dismembered arm lols.....so relax just a little drop of blood..kkk enough of the typing still must do some hw and tomorrow got that damn wu lao ti (pig) de stupid remidier sian arh cant wait to stuff her shoe in her mouth nothing good comes out of her mouth that damn ingrate sexist ......cant believe her actions man always shoot the boys noob la..... well in any case her teaching is good can liao ...... gtg le byes

LAUGHING FRENZY WITH ELIZABETH AND WIPHAPORN

2008-08-24T06:21:00.000-07:00

man today rawks man .... elizabeth great to have met you can see that you are a very friendly person hahahahas....but....why every thing also beat me lols....joking la im okay with it.......and today ...just had another super hard laugh with elizabeth when wiphaporn came in to the library looking for us and like some blur blur ppl dun even know me and elizabeth were right at the corner.. laugh like sick man....kinda cool how things work ..... we never met actually abit scared to talk then i started talking first hhahahas.... guess thats what im good at hahahs....well she really laugh alot lah .... i think if she ask me to study again together with Leling i will be more then happy to follow hahahs cant help to laugh like nuts in the library againa hahahs .... i think that wiphaporn you should rethink bout your choice of going to the botanic garden again hahahas ..and i will go to your concert .... okays just tell me when alrights....

Up coming movies => DAWN OF THE..........................SIAN

2008-08-23T03:27:00.000-07:00

Thats just great man i failed my chemistry
28 marks upon 100 un believable this just shows how good mdm baghya teaching is this is like the second time i fail right after you teach.....forget it .. thinking bout it just boiling my blood .......Well at least one thing made me happy i got by red tip belt for Taekwondo .....yayayayayay....next year i think im suppose to go for my black belt test ...well i must say i kinda scared i think i might lose a tooth ...those guys go for tournament and their kicks...... hell off a kind... i think i might stand a little chance there but appearance are decieving maybe i seem like fighting some one weak but turn out to be some professional hahahas... thats when i will run ...... tomorrow going to woodlands regional library to study with wip and eliz..... kinda funny but this is the first time in 4 years i have been to the library...dots hahs any ways gonna have to go now byyess

When heros have no job

2008-08-15T08:35:00.000-07:00

Arh teachers always says the test is easy but in the end ppl always fail. What can we do.... well i guess keep studying.... some more all the question she set from ten yr series haiyo should have memorise the answer then i could have atleast a chance to pass sian ah today nothing much happen though just a normal usual day ...and elizabeth if you are reading this ..... get better soon okays hahas.... well on thing that made me laugh was when i came across this

IM FEELING ALITTLE DOWN RIGHT NOW

2008-08-13T05:09:00.000-07:00

WHAT AM I TO DO HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO .....I REALLY FEEL LIKE CRYING DAMN IM SO STRESSED UP RIGHT NOW ......ALL THIS ....... BEING A LEADER AINT EASY PROBLEMS JUST KEEP COMINGS .......... COULD IT BE TRUE WHAT THEY SAY ABOUT THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL AND BEFORE THAT MUCH WOULD BE LOST...... I SO FEEL LIKE CRYING .........BUT I CANT PULL MY SELF TO CRY.......IM SO STRESSED UP .........I HOPE I DONT SUFFER FROM DEPRESSION

2008-08-12T05:35:00.000-07:00

My Class so far the best class ever

and the elephants

IM PISSED

2008-08-12T03:08:00.000-07:00

Great im starting to hate miss fong she's really starting to piss me off. Firstly she loses my book then she loses my paper then she ask me to buy a new exercise book for the second time then she wrote my name in journal saying that i never do hw what the hell. Miss fong with her every so "hard working" attitude is giving us a test tommorrow and told us last minute . We told her to change the date cuz tomorrow is the date to our socials studies test which requires alot of reading but she just keep giving that sacarstic look saying " its okay very easy one la can one la" yeah...now i understand why her sec 4 clases always fail physics ....what a crap teacher is she .....she suck totally

Another day of siting infront of the table lamp

2008-08-10T22:35:00.000-07:00

Great if this keeps on i think on the teacher will more likely be the one who have killed us then helped us.....its really too much hw damn that miss fong 3 chapters you gotta be kidding me..... and if you(miss fong) are reading this now keep this in your head.... get the facts straight before you scold some body ....... now pushing myself to the limits to doing hw .....dont seem to cope well keep getting distracted by stuffs around me arr crap i cant feel my hands although i haven been writing much... man ...oh yah i stilll gotta say THANKS ELENA!!!!!!!!! ......THANKS FOR HELPING ME WITH THE BLOG SKIN AND ALL ....I'SHALL KEEP MY PROMISE IN BUYING YOU A DRINK ON TUESDAY AND MACDONALDS ON ANOTHER DAY....oh yah if you guys scroll down you can see a photo of a girl....for the millionth time THATS NOT MY GIRL FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SHE IS MY BESTFRIEND!!!!! GET THAT IN YOUR HEAD !!!!!!! I DONT MIND LENDING YOU A HAND WITH THE HAMMER OH YOUR HEAD TO GET IT IN ....... LOLS just kidding ....alrightyss readers have fun with today cuz i cant see anything fun coming up to me today

HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-09T22:02:00.000-07:00

SIANZZZZZ ..... SO MANY HW HAVEN EVEN START ONE ARRRRRRRR....DAMN IT JUST WOKE UP SOMEMORE ......SUSAN YESTERDAY DO LIKE CRAZEE STILL CANNOT GET ANSWER .....MAN WHAT THE HELL I THINK I WILL SPEND 24 HOURS TO DO THE HW

A GREAT DAY WITH A GREAT FRIEND

2008-08-09T10:16:00.000-07:00

AS ASKED IVE PUT HER PIC ON MY BLOG
BEARS DOING KUNG FU
DOGGIES
NATIONAL DAY PARADE

When to esplanade today ...go watch NDP with leling .... exhilirating ... third time i went to see...Been a Long time since we have met already so we talked alot about personal stuffs lol ....kinda funny how that works ..... We talk about our life from the day we have not met till today ... actually kinda glad to see she is still that old happy joyful buddy...Leling you made me get scolded by the cleaner just because you were scared with no one in there then ask me to stand out side the girls toilet and wait for you.... Dotz no lah joking la im fine with it lol just remind me not to do that again lol ..... actually its super paiseh lah to stand outside the girls toilet holding the door open becuz you are scared lol ..... send me afew photos she ask me put her pic see wheather will there be any rumours lol shes gotta be kidding me lol well im kinda curious too .....and please Leling STOP APOLOGIZING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Once is enough ok....dotzz Sian ah didnt have a good camera shot and damn my phone sure knows how to piss me off runs out of batteries when the fireworks starts..... Well Leling. she was kind enough to send me the photos thanks .....I really think we should do this again some time ...

Great Day

2008-08-04T07:39:00.000-07:00

Today is one of a Damn great experience that old that that take us is like 70 years old and he is jumping up and down climbing up and down like a monkey really fit la he ......he should be a comedian he is damn funny ......and Susan i didnt know you scared of the dark.....dotz....well i got frightened to by the fake man sitting beside me hhahas then once again farhanah always calls me when she needs a photographer as always lol i really hope i dun get a job as a photographer next time i think its so not me ....... Me and zhixiong munching on doritos happily through out the journey.....the spicy one thanks to 3 e 1s loving and care for every member and there unselfhishness the whole packet finish as soon as i opened it .....that lim wan heng keep asking me for doritos .....speaking bout doritos it is super nice la especially when you eating mars bar so nice sensational experience..... GU HAIXIANG stop mocking me or i will kick yur nuts
or better still i stuff that walking stick of the tour guide up yur arse ........ ppl why today almost like alot of ppl all moodie papaya

2007-11-18T07:14:00.000-08:00

yay went to 3e1 next year lucky zhixiong and wisaphoon there or else i will die of loneliness hahaha not much happening this few weeks only that my fathers coming home man i cant believe 3 year and 1/2 just pass by so quick

2007-10-27T09:31:00.000-07:00

man im so looking forward to mondae cuz xiao xiong and ah gua comingy house but miss out something the apocalypto actually planned to watch the show with them but couldnt get it m 18 somemore man....

2007-10-24T01:20:00.000-07:00

Man i dont think i can get in A maths so sad and angry still hear that all the good teaCHERS miss ding mrs lau are going off...now all we got are lousy teachers damn....